I am a Mother

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Mother’s Day can be a dreadful one for those who have lost or long to have a child. For me, its just another reminder (as if there aren’t enough already) of the chubby cheeks I don’t get to kiss, the little hands I don’t get to hold, and the small voice that I don’t get […]

Eating Disorder- Lost in Someone else’s Body.

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Eating Disorder Part 4-  Lost in Someone else’s body     I have never been one to have a lot of friends- especially of the girl variety. I was never comfortable around a big group of girls. I had my few gems and I called it good. It worked for me. It was comfortable. So, […]

Eating Disorder- Destructive Behaviors

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Eating Disorder- Part 3 This is the part of the story where I engage in destructive behaviors and let ED into my head full force. As with the rest of the story up to this point I didn’t know about ED and the eating disorder world. (all that came to me when I started therapy) […]

Prescription Drug Abuse Part 6

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After the near drowning incident we decided to go and get some help. We picked a doctor and went to share our problem with him.  He was kind of a weird guy, but he helped us wade through some of the things we were facing.   He prescribed some medication to help with Jon’s anxiety […]

Eating Disorder- Choices

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Eating Disorder Part 2- Choices!         That summer started out as a doozie. I fought and fought with myself over whether or not I should try out for the cheerleading squad. All my friends were but I was not feeling so confident. My fear of failure was staking it’s claim in my […]

Eating Disorder- The Beginning

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Part #1 of my Eating Disorder Journey       I was 12 when life as I knew it changed and little part of me died.   At the time, I don’t think it was physically possible to realize how much what had happened would affect me, my life, my journey and ultimately my happiness. I mean […]

Strength doesn’t reside in having never been broken.

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I am an infertility survivor. I am an adoptive mother. I am a hope advocate.   But hope in what? What do we hope for? What do you hope for? For me, I think what it boils down to is hope that we will have the strength we need to make it through whatever life […]

Sorbet Recipe with Grapefruit

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I keep thinking that Springtime weather is finally going to hit us, only to wake up every morning to continue feeling that crispness that is usually only in the autumn air.  We are getting a bit stir crazy here, ready for summer!  So, what better way to bring that summer feeling indoors than a frozen […]

Prescription Drug Abuse Part 5

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These Prescriptions medication posts that I have to write have been hanging over my head like an elephant tied to a string. I have wanted to share, but wait for the perfect opportunity to tell.  I wait for a day I feel super strong and let it out bit by bit.  I am at a […]

Prescription Drug Abuse Part 4

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Before I begin sharing the next part of this story, I want you to know that Jon is very aware that I am sharing this story.  He is in this with me, we are together…as *one* sharing OUR story.   We plowed through it together, and we are sharing it together.   He may be […]